that this can't be it? Are you feeling hopeless? Are you feeling unfulfilled in life? Do you just want inner peace and joy?
But then you may feel a little embarrassed to even feel this way because you're making the amount of money you thought would bring peace and contentment. Your family thinks you're "successful". You have the nice house, have a fridge full of all the food you like, you get to travel a few times a year.
But yet... that feeling is still there. A feeling like, what you're doing in life right now, is not where you're supposed to be? That there's got to be something more to life. And having to maintain that front.. that you're totally engaged and loving your work - when inwardly, your thoughts are constantly racing - thinking of all the "what if" scenarios swarming around in your head, hoping to find that, "Ah ha" moment, that will get you out of this rut... is draining.
Did you take the path you're on because everyone else was going that way, or because of someone else's expectations, or just randomly because you had to choose something?
Would you say that you are living your destiny or at least on the pathway there? If your answer is no, then that is why you're emotionally drained and have that nagging feeling inside. Ah ha! And this can lead to anger, jealousy, resentment, self destructive behaviors... so we must resolve this. I'd like to help.
"My yoke is easy and my burden light "
" Come to me, all who are weary and I will give you rest" - Matthew 11:29
If you don't feel like you're floating through life with a light, easy, peaceful feeling - then maybe something deep within is compelling you to make an adjustment to an area in your life, to find your purpose, and inner peace and contentment.
Browsing around the internet the other day I came across a speech by a professional that was giving a talk on how to get ahead in life. The gist of it was, "drive hard", "no rest", "work all day work all night ". That's the opposite of a light, easy, peaceful burden. Which would you prefer?
I wonder if God sent the flood as soon as Noah finished the ark or if Noah had to work tirelessly day and night to meet a deadline God had set?
You are the one and only you. Your Creator gave you unique gifts and a unique purpose in life to utilize those gifts. Only you can fulfill that purpose. Our individual paths are easily missed in this busy, distracted world, because it's a narrow path - it's only meant for one. So now we need to back track, through all the debris on the road to find that narrow opening to your true path you missed.
"Wide is the road that leads to destruction, and many there be which go in. Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life." - Matthew 7:13
I believe if you reconnect with your true self, then your passion and purpose will reveal itself. And then, you won't feel like days are forced anymore. Instead you'll feel FREEEEEDOOOOM -- Like you're floating through life.
So here's an assignment for you to work on.
Write down the activities that you currently do, or did as a child that made you come alive and feel full of excitement, joy and wonder. I'm talking about the kinds of activities that even if you were dead tired and could barely keep your eyes open - you'd wake up for. The kinds of activities that you'd get so focused on.... that hours would just fly by and you wish you didn't have to stop. Take your time and have fun with this activity. You might have forgotten your favorite things. Look at old pictures, ask family members and friends what they remember you always doing as a kid. Read comments from old report cards or old job performance reviews.
As you recall things you really enjoyed doing, write them down. Here are some questions to help jog your memory:
-What were your very first answers when people asked you what you wanted to be when you grew up, before any external influences crept in?
-Did you collect anything as a kid? What was it that fascinated you about your collection?
-What were your favorite toys to play with as a kid and why?
-What were your favorite books to read?
-When alone in the private sanctuary of your room - is that when you played dress up... pretended to interview presidents... wrote music...?
- What is it that has always been with you, deep inside, that you wish you had pursued?
- What have past colleagues complimented you on about your work skills?
Once you have a list of several activities, review your list and identify common characteristics or themes about some of the activities.
See you on the next post! I'll share my list with you and tell you what you're going to do with this list in the next post.
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